Wednesday, August 24, 2005
> im not guilty!
hey ritley tay, such allegation! i did not steal it, i merely
took it. you are lucky i didn't read your messages and reply to all your girlfriends/boyfriends. tsk tsk i shall TAKE it home again sometime... hmmm
kaiqian
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
> thief
Kaiqian is a handphone stealer.
Beware of her!
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Sunday, August 14, 2005
> just feel like sharing something
hey i just suddenly felt like telling this story all over again. hahaa. and this story goes out to all the people who have completely lost hopes in 71.
and it goes like this.
there's this morning, shuli came to school on bus. Shuli may look big and fat and all that, she's quite weak (-.-) she black out on the bus, stumbled to the bus stop and sat down in the bus stop for ages. all these while, she couldnt see a single thing. the last she saw was the neighbourhood police post.
and so she sat. people came and walked away. slowly, she started to see things. her head spins. her legs were jelly so she culdnt stand up and walked over to hwa chong. and so she sat. repeating the incident in her head and amazed that she survived it.
jiayin came and the gentleness in her face made shuli told her what happened. Jiayin was horrified and asked shuli if she's alright. shuli replied yes. but her legs are still weak and she couldnt walk in. and so she told jiayin to in first. jiayin walks away uncertainly.
and guess what? i think kaiqian's right. class spirit is in the little things.
jiayin, with the rest of the girls in our class, returned to the bus stop. one by one they asked shuli if she's alright. they took her bag, and helped her to school. they tell her how shocked they were when jiayin went to the class bench and broke the news to them. and thus, they all came, their hearts and faces shining.
they came.
and i think that's all matters.
so people who have completely lost hopes in us, HEY! open your eyes to see the litttle things around you, happening quietly. they mean a lot (:
love
shuli*
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Friday, August 12, 2005
> Just what the doctor ordered
- Junyi
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> why do you despair?
actually i read the previous entry 2 hours ago, but i told myself to cool down first before posting any entry, or i might be too impulsive and wage war with people or sth like that... (: that's besides the point i want to make.
i hope to keep it short, but you know how long winded i can get? (: ok here i go... i understand kian's feelings, though i may not be there. i know it's hard to convince anyone i truly understand, but i guess i felt it before, just that i didn't say it. there are many things that are different now, more stress, more homework, less fun than before. maybe it's this, plus many other troublesome stuff which make people unhappy? im making an assumption here, and of course i know there are some who are always happy lar.. the point is, no one ever said life will not change, everything is so transient, have not we learnt about it?
from o level results, to separation of the old 71, to the 71 now, i can only say that things change, but the feelings are there. i don't think it's so much of the people, it's the situation that's different. people may seem colder, you may assume or think that no one cares about the class anymore. but hey, pause for a moment and think, if people don't care, would there be such strong reactions from so many people in class? shuli's post, the anonymous person who was so "noble" to repost kian and ritz messages to ask us to reflect, jiaming's entry... we care, and i trust the rest of the people do as well. it's just maybe they don't show it, but does that mean they don't care at all?
people are especially self-centred when they are upset. im not targetting anyone, in fact im a human being, so i fall under that category as well. don't you feel that, when you are sad, you tend to focus so much on yourself, and neglect other people's emotions? we tend to think we are the victims, and the whole world owes us sth which in fact, it may be the other way round. i have gone through this period, when i found no purpose in going to school, because i felt i was doing stupid stuff for a bunch of people who did not appreciate at all. i felt that people took me for granted, that i was just a fool giving everything, and receiving none. (take note of the past tense!!) but when i took a step back and looked, in fact im not the victim, everyone is equal. it's when i was sad, i neglected the care and concern people may shower me with, and sank deeper into it.
class outing, people don't turn up, so those who went felt disappointed. i understand that feeling, have not i felt before and many others too? shuli for example, who didn't take it to heart. is it just class outing that determines the class spirit? i have always wanted to say this, but i thought i shall not bother so much. but if i don't bring it up, i think im letting myself down. i want to question how much you love the class, if you say you do, and you feel sad at the state of the class now... please think... there are many other things, other than class outings that determine class spirit, many of which no one even bothers. events such as national day costume parade, racial harmony day fashion show, do you bother to even listen and help? if you say this is not the sole determinant of class spirit, then let me tell you, neither is class outing. my experience from a great class, we seldom go out, yet we miss each other like crazy when we left. why? im not drawing comparisons but rather talking about my expereince here. i presume it's because everyone made the effort to contribute in each and every way. at this point, i want to thank tiffany, for bothering to design the national day costume. sth she said really left a deep impression. she told me she is part of the class, so she will do sth for it. no one helped her, neither did i and yet she did not even utter a word of complain.
it's not so much of pushing the blame to anyone, or asking why the class has turned this way. firstly, everyone has a part to play, and i can say i failed as a ct rep because i did not bond the class, as i should have done. and maybe you can think, in what ways have you failed? you don't have to tell anyone, know it and change that. i will work to my fullest ability to do what im supposed to do as a ct rep, and hopefully i will not regret when i leave this class. secondly, asking why will not help the situation. things are different, but i believe people can change that too. so why despair, lose hope and tell everyone the class has changed, and say things like you don't want to have hopes? if you are afraid to face the risks of disappointments, then you will never know what is faith and trust.
i told shiru and shimin before, i wanted so much to leave this college and they ask me if it's this bad. it's not hc, not the class, it's just stress. but i thought about it again, and remembered the day when i had to report to ajc. the feeling was undescribable, i knew i didn't belong there and i felt so lost. and i can predict that at the end of next year, many of us will cry, and say we will miss each other etc etc despite all these things that happen. but why you may ask... because we care though we don't show it, say it. some things are not within our control, like our choice to go for class outing or not. who doesn't want to relax and spend time with the class, im assuming that you really love the class here. what i can say is, we care, and please, don't let a few setbacks take away that love for the class, and please, don't deny the class because of the poor turnout at class outings. because i do not wish to go to school, and face cold-hearted people everyday, and neither do many of you i presume. i do not wish to leave hc now, and i don't regret fighting to stay in this class though it's so different now. there is still love i know.
and maybe there are small gestures that you overlook, which can prove that the class is still bonded together. besides looking at the strong reaction at the class blog, please recall the times when we ganged up against *coughs* people who are mean to our class, and the smiles you get each day which can brighten one's day, at least my day. (:
if talks can turn one negative, then i hope an entry can bring hope to you people? im optimistic, because i choose to view the situation differently. personally i feel that when you are negative and upset, even the greatest thing that people do to you may seem like an evil act in your eyes? im exaggerating here, but ya, you get the idea... yes its true you might face disappointments, but for me, i will rather take that risk, then never to experience what it means by faith and trust.
and lastly, i know im very longwinded already... so im going to slap myself to sleep... ok i digress... yup lastly right, i want to say i turst those who lose hopes and are lost now, they will find that hope again and not give up on the class. hey im not playing psychology or pressurising anyone, but im letting nature take its course, and i believe one day, when you look back, things are not as bad as you thought they are. (:
you got to believe it (:
with lots of love,
kai-qian
p.s who is passerby? you sound very nice and i want to be your friend! ya that was random..
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
> ~ 71 ~
i recall just 4 months ago. the posting period. kai-qian didn't get in. kian was stupid, and requested for some funny combi and in the end wanted to be back here. it's all in the past, now they're with us. But i just want to say sorry kian. Really sorry. I just feel so bad for all that I've done then. you were hesitant about returning to sevenone, cos u knew with the differnet people, sevenone would no longer be the same. It was me, who assured everything would only be better, if not the same. It was me, who coerced you into making this decision to stay with sevenone. I'm not saying sevenone is no good, but I mean with all the talks with you and your posts, it's not difficult to tell you're unhappy.
Maybe it's just the few of us feeling it. kian, ritz and me. or is it the others also. Here i also have to apologise to huixuan, whom through my talking to, guess i turned her negative as well. but thx to you as well, for cheering me up :) (ice-cream!) sevenone has changed, like it or not. It's no longer the same. It's not the 2nd intakers' fault. It's just how everything is different. Like what kian said, nothing's changed, but nothing's quite the same ever again.
What happened? Was all the strong bonding during posting period all just for show like what ritz said? I don't know. True, one can't link the class outing turnout with class unity and all, but it does tell alot. memories just keep coming back. orientation. guys were dao. but we were sevenone, proud to be sevenone. 71. something so sacred. something we all hold so dear to our hearts. The cheers came from within. That, was then.
kian has given up hopes. Guess ritz won't have much as well. me myself, i've learnt to not have hopes. no hopes rather than disappointments. again, izit just the few of us. looking at the posts of kian, ritz and jiaming, i just get despondent.
i don't know whether 71 is gone like what kian says. it's up to you to judge.
. it's gone, and you know it . long
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> ~ 71 ~
i recall just 4 months ago. the posting period. kai-qian didn't get in. kian was stupid, and requested for some funny combi and in the end wanted to be back here. it's all in the past, now they're with us. But i just want to say sorry kian. Really sorry. I just feel so bad for all that I've done then. you were hesitant about returning to sevenone, cos u knew with the differnet people, sevenone would no longer be the same. It was me, who assured everything would only be better, if not the same. It was me, who coerced you into making this decision to stay with sevenone. I'm not saying sevenone is no good, but I mean with all the talks with you and your posts, it's not difficult to tell you're unhappy.
Maybe it's just the few of us feeling it. kian, ritz and me. or is it the others also. Here i also have to apologise to huixuan, whom through my talking to, guess i turned her negative as well. but thx to you as well, for cheering me up :) (ice-cream!) sevenone has changed, like it or not. It's no longer the same. It's not the 2nd intakers' fault. It's just how everything is different. Like what kian said, nothing's changed, but nothing's quite the same ever again.
What happened? Was all the strong bonding during posting period all just for show like what ritz said? I don't know. True, one can't link the class outing turnout with class unity and all, but it does tell alot. memories just keep coming back. orientation. guys were dao. but we were sevenone, proud to be sevenone. 71. something so sacred. something we all hold so dear to our hearts. The cheers came from within. That, was then.
kian has given up hopes. Guess ritz won't have much as well. me myself, i've learnt to not have hopes. no hopes rather than disappointments. again, izit just the few of us. looking at the posts of kian, ritz and jiaming, i just get despondent.
i don't know whether 71 is gone like what kian says. it's up to you to judge.
. it's gone, and you know it .
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> engulfed by the sweet saccharine of it all
Ok i broke my promise to abstain from the usage of the com but anw im here juz to clarify things so that this issue abt the class outing can come to an end.
haha firstly, i juz wanna say that i do not regret posting e prev entry as it was a truthful reflection on what i felt that day. was juz bein honest, and so i certainly find no wrong in doin that. but after much reflection, i think i wld apologise fr the harsh tone adopted in it as emotions and more emotions clouded my thoughts. yet the purpose of it all wasnt to blame any1 or to accuse ppl of purposely skipping class outings for that matter. of coz i noe that tiffany had council matters, huixuan & kaiqian had interact, jiayin had dance, sean had old class gathering, gerald was grounded and many others were sick. i do not blame them and i esp appreciate every little effort put in to even try to come at all.. and i din noe that shuli, u had menstrual cramps. im sry to hear bout that. was not targeting any1 specifically so i din expect the big uproar over some random ramblings. anw i guessed the disappointment in the poor turnout got to me so badly that i juz lost it.. so sry fr the way that i put things across. but its impossible to refute the stark truth of it all, our class has changed. for the better or worse i do not noe. or maybe its juz me, sitting there in silence while envyin the strong bonds between snrs in our snr class; invaluable friendship coupled with gd grades. im so jealous. is that too much to ask fr?
'nth has changed, yet nth's quite the same.'vicissitudes of life. once engulfed by the sweet saccharine of it all, im lost in this pile of crumbling castles.
-kian
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Hi..my dear class 05s71…
First, I want to say sorry for the class outing…I really couldn’t make it becoz of the performance…sorry to all those got disappointed…
After reading all the posts, u know what, I took out the 05s71 class list, and read through it all again..they are not only names and contact list to me..they mean more..and I know how much I miss all of u…
I miss the jokes, the laughers, the tears, and all the memory…
The day I went back to watch the Hwa Chong performance and saw huixuan, jiayin, Pamela, Adeline, shiru, chenlu…and all the hugs made me feel so warm and touched…
U know what is the most special and unique thing of Hwa Chong, its not only a school, it's a place watches us grow and grows with us, it's the family feeling......and now,we can't expect anything to go back to the past, we must move on and learn to treasure what we have…
and to Kian, and whoever feels like him, u can never compare the present with the past...they are different...u will never feel happy if u always compare that…u gain some and lose some...but they will never be the same...and lets think about 2 yrs later..when these two years of school ends, I bet u guys will cry…and know how much u will miss each other and how much wont want to leave each other…because u guys have spent TWO YEARS together…2 yrs of chatting, laughing, playing, doing tutorials and having boring lessons together…U ARE with each other everyday now… so please don lose hope in each other…and rmb whatever u a doing now will be part of the priceless memory in the future…and next yr, u a going to have junior class too..u guys should show them what is the 71 spirit…
To Kerwei:
I only got the news today…heard that u are leaving…and nobody told me…I would always rmb u as I rmb the whole class…rmb u writing the best chem. partner on the paper on my back during the game…rmb the econ project we did together…and all the jokes we share together.....please take care, okay? The leaving part will be hard…but nvm…u will always meet friends that who k stand beside u…after all, the whole 71s is all here!!!71s is never gone...
When u a flying off?
en , I don know what to say alr ( I miss Hwa Chong, I miss u guys)…
what memory u will choose to leave in these 2yrs is up to u…pls treasure those pple around u and those be with u, sometimes a simple talk and a joke will do….
...jiaming...
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nah, i'm not writing this entry to show you excuses. the truth is i didnt go sentosa. if you want to know what i did on that gorgeous day, i laid on the bed and cried because of menstrual cramps. i ate four panadols in one hour. i smsed chenlu to complain. but well, i have digress. it's true i didnt go and yes, i am sorry. i'm sorry that i missed out on another great chance to bond with everyone. i'm sorry kian wei for wasting your efforts. i talked to a few ppl who did not make it to the class outing and ppl like tiffany couldnt make it because she has council. in fact, she has council every saturday. (dont make a class outing on sat again! =D)
but i want to write this entry and encourage everyone. let's not give up hopes people! it's true the second 71 did not have as much time to bond. we didnt had the chance to yell the cheers together, go into the starch pool together, cry over results and work to stay together, play and ate our hearts' content, pon lessons like anything...when the second intakers first came, they had to go for make-up EVERYDAY. they couldnt even go for the SIM break. unlike the first 71 (when during one particular chem lessons, not a single guy appeared). and when the make up lectures end, TADA! the block test came rushing our way
now the block test is over. but well, the results didnt help a lot did they?
so i hope that kianwei and ritz or anyone else dont give hope on 71! we are a great class. we are, kianwei. when i talk to my sec4 friends, they tell me all about bitchy sluts and terrible people in their class. i'm proud to say 71 dont have such disgusting characters. i dont hate anyone from 71. and my pw group rocks. i hear of irresponsible people in the groups but my pw group works together and we just have such great time at jong's hse all the time.
i'm very very glad i'm in 71. really. for i think together we make a great class.
but i tin we need time. like what i've mentioned above, the second 71 really dont have much time to truly bond together. but we can always try harder. well, i tin most ppl know of the close relationship i share with my sec4 class. we still meet regularly and sometimes i'll just go drop by their jcs and have fun watching movies and drowning in pizzas. but we had two years to make that happen. in sec3, we didnt have a single class outing.
so i think what we need is a bit more time and effort. i tin 71 is slwoly working towards that already. now for almost every single afternoon, i'm at coro or kap or anywhere else with chenlu, pris, junyi and jong to eat and have fun and talk. i still rmb how shiru, chenlu, pris, junyi, jong and me ate at ke ai chicken and laughed like anything. we had such fun!
we did have our share of failed class outings. this sentosa, my kbox outing, the list goes on. but hey! let's not give up hope! let's try harder! it makes my heart twist when i see eager ppl lose hope in us. we can do it. we have to believe in ourselves. i rmb all the cute and true posts we had after the results were released. i tin we meant everything we said.
so sorry kianwei again, for not making to the class outing. but please dont say things like good bye. dont dismiss all of us like this. i know we all have to try harder.
love
shuli*
once a 71er, forever a 71er.
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Monday, August 08, 2005
> uttermost disappointment in 71
Initially wanted to start of this post with the line "71 sucks big time". But I've cooled down and the disppointment's getting easier to handle.. I mean, this failed attempt of a class outing to sentosa juz adds on to the list of failures doesn't it? The list that has been there ever since e 2nd intakers joined us. whatever.
Ok maybe u think that Im bein overly worked up over here and I admit that I am. But imagine how we felt when we arrived at harbourfront mrt station at 9am to see only jielong, ritzley, junyi and roslyn. That was the pathetic no. of us who actually made it there and the 5 of us took a bus down to sentosa. Just the 5 of us.
Reached sentosa and took the mini blue bus(silosa beach line) down to sunset bay where we started playin vball. At abt 11.30am hongli appeared! =] And note this my fellow classmates: she came down after soccer competition in the morning just to talk to us for 45mins before leaving for tuition at 12.15pm. -shrugs- Are we being fair to her? I cld see the disappointment when she asked fr the rest of the class.. sigh.
Ronald came after rugby trng shortly after and huaming(our beloved and missed 1st intaker who's currently in AJ) and kerwei appeared slightly before lunch to take part in our vball matches against other ppl whom we did not noe. Shimin rushed down to sentosa after piano lessons at woodlands and met us before we went to BK for lunch. Pris who overslept joined us during lunchtime at BK before leaving for indoor stadium at abt 4 plus. Alright so wad is my purpose of telling this to every1? Certainly not to describe the wonderful outing that we had today.. The weather was great, the location and more importantly the company. (Hopefully the others will write abt that) =)
What Im tryin to say is this. Look at the names of the ppl who went. Roslyn, huaming, shimin, hongli, kerwei, pris, ritz, jielong, ronald, junyi and me. 5/11, thats almost half of the ppl who turned up isnt even in this class now. Hey I thot this was supposed to be a 71 class outing? Ppl who have left us made an effort to turn up fr this outing.. Yet the ppl in our class do not treasure such gd bonding times. Its really v saddening and the disappointment's inexplicable.
Whats the point in sayin stuff like "I wanna go sentosa!", "I wan haf a class outing" or "our class seem quieter and less bonded than in the past" and then dun care enough to even turn up fr a simple class outing that is on a saturday before 4 days of holidays? crap. total bullshit. What were u guys doin? muggin at home? Im sry I juz cant control my emotions today. Im juz so touched by the ppl who were with us inthe 1st 3mths and disappointed by those in the class now.
Kerwei nearly made me cry today. I rmb that before we boarded the bus to eat lunch. He asked me to rmb to write to him or email when he is in the states. I told him that I wld miss him when he's gone and I asked him if he wld feel the same and his reply was, "yeah.. if not then why am I here today?" =( touched by his words.
Jiamin din manage to come down due to harmonica performance although she wanted to.. Ppl were down with e flu bug and many had stuff on. Everyone has their reasons and I respect that. So I guess its juz my fault for tryin to initiate such a pointless outing. Just ignore the effort we put in to ask every1 and pass down relay msgs. Maybe we guys did a terrible job. But rest assured that I wun be tryin to initiate 1 anymore. They'll end up like this anyway.
Goodbye 71. What used to be the perfect class; the class that I wld do anythin juz to stay in it.. is gone.
-kian.
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I rmb jiaming specially coming for the class chalet at night, even though she couldn't stay over, she took the effort to come all the way just to spend like, 2 hours with us. I was so touched. Ytd, hongli came all the way to sentosa after her soccer trg to spend like, 45mins with us, before having to leave for tuition. Once again I felt so touched by her actions. As kian put it, ytd's outg comprised of 5/11 of first intakers who left the class. Why isit like this? Din we all wish to stay tgt as a class during the postings period? Din we all try to stay on as hard as we could? What happened after all of it? Was it all a show? just to show off how close we were and how united we were? and after the show we all just pretend the show din happen at all????
If that's the case, I wld rather this class split up totally in the first place. Stay tgt for wad? becos if staying on means making us not treasure it anymore, then split up. at least I believe we wld all then make an effort to go for class outgs. I don't think it's the 2nd intakers' fault. Some of the 1st intakers have changed. Looks so fake to me. jiaming's gift to the class, the jigsaw puzzle. does it hold any meaning now? Even if we piece the puzzle tgt again, it won't be the same, probably some parts have lost its colour. Sure the puzzle hasn't deformed, it still fits all tgt, but the look of it has changed. Completely. and I can't see it changing back to its original state in future.
- i repostd this for ritz and kian....
pls reflect
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005
> huh
Haven't been here for so long that I stunned momentarily when blogger asked me for the password. I forgot! I mean, I almost forgot. =/ Bet you forgot too.
Anyway, here's what I wanted to post:
"No need for Star Awards. We all know who's the best female actress."
But considering the consequences, I think I better not post that.
Oh. Have a nice day. :)
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